Where's the Beef?

Dennis and I went to see the movie Chronicles of Narnia last week and there is a point in the movie where the children reach the camp of the army of Aslan. As I watched them walk into the camp I could feel tears coming to my eyes and wondered if anyone was affected by it like I was. I recognized it, the feeling of a warrior walking into a camp where they have been expected. Where there are others waiting to fight the same battle that they are facing. Reinforcements. Hope.
It affected me because many times I feel that I fight my battles alone. Yes, God calls me to them and He is there with me, but I often feel alone. He calls me to be obedient, and I am, but in the midst of the fight I am so focused on what is in front of me that I loose sight of what is around me. It is always encouraging to find that there are others who are fighting too.
I have been feeling alone for a while now, and I was giving up. Indeed on friday I declared to a friend that I was 'done'. I had been experiencing dizzy spells and nausea, as well. I know now it was because I was quitting and my faith was very low. Where was God, He wasn't where I expected Him to be. I was open to satans arrows, and he was taking me out. Standing outside of Gods' will for me. As soon as I said out loud that I was 'done' the dizzyness subsided, because satan knew he was winning. (I know this must sound crazy to anyone who doesn't know what I am talking about but there are those of you who will understand it perfectly.)
The next morning I had an email response to a post from way back in July that I had done of Psalm 130.


1 Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;
2 O Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy. 3 If you, O LORD, kept a record of sin, O Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared.
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the
morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 O Israel, put your hope in the LORD, for with the
LORD is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. 8 He
himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.

I followed back the link to this post by Mike Exum. Now, this man does not know me, has never visited my site before now, that I know of. But here he was being used by God to remind me that my purpose in Him is to be a watchman. When I made the original post of this Psalm I was full of hope, but now my hope was gone. I was sure that mine was a meatless sandwich, (read his post and that will make sense), vegetarian...so to speak. Hey God, you forgot the meat on this sandwich, where's my hope gone. A sort of spiritual cry of 'Where's the beef?'
I believe that is how He works sometimes. The circumstances of Mikes' timing; his response to an old post coming now. He can't know how his simple response encouraged me.
I don't know what this next year will bring, but this one thing I do know. He has called me and I will be faithful, regardless of the outcome. That belongs to Him. I will call out to Him in the darkness of the night as I wait and I watch for the morning to come, and I will try not to be afraid.

I heard your song coming over the hill
I know it seemed that the world stood still
You were singing a melody that cought me by surprise
Yeah, it sounded familiar to me, like I'd known it all my life.
I kept looking down as I'm moving closer
My heart is racing now with fear and wonder
Could I come back to you after so long on my own?
From where I am, I know this is not my home.

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You're the one, I believe
A king and friend, who's always been holding onto me
You're the one, and I can see
Your life and death, your endless breath
breathing into me.
Just the mention of your name
and I know, I know I've found love
'Cause you're the one.

High in a hidden world is where you are found
where every living thing circles around
I found myself again where I used to be
With the rescued ones falling on my knees.

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In your presence there is mercy
in the fear, joy in the tears
It's your goodness that keeps on, keeps on
Calling us here, drawing us near.

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Chris Tomlin - You're the One from The Chronicles of Narnia soundtrack.