The riddle must be solved in you—the riddle of your heart, which makes you so stubborn, ill-humored, and querulous; so hard of hearing and so apathetic. God means to see it answered in you, and thus you must grapple with it. You rack your brain to solve the mystery of the Savior, but you would do better to examine the puzzle of your own heart. You should be wondering why you are so impenetrable: why your intentions, which are always so noble, are followed by so few good deeds; why, despite your pious impulses, your life is so lacking in genuine devotion; why, when it comes to really getting things done, you turn out to be so feeble, so lame. You are always sighing, it is true, but to what effect? You are always struggling, but where are your victories? You are always shooting down someone or something, yet you never prevail. These are the enigmas that ought to occupy you: everything else is irrelevant. Don’t be tempted to believe that some man of God can help you; that a pastor or priest, an institution or an organization can save your soul. Each of us must tackle the riddle of salvation for himself; each must battle his own nature; each one must abandon himself if he is to grasp spiritual things. - C. F. Blumhardt, in “Die, and Jesus Will Live,” 1891

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Well worth the read.